He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name.
Psalms 23:3 NLT
Oh how my soul needs this right now.
Give your burdens to the Lord , and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.
Psalms 55:22 NLT
Today starts a mini vacation day for me. Unlike other vacations where I normally say “oh it’s so needed”, I don’t feel that way with this one. I’ve had a very nice summer. I have taken several extra days off. I wasn’t even originally going to take today off, but my boss encouraged it. One of our staff members is leaving and so my load will increase a bit at work. Next week is month-end, and our pool party, and late rent, and I have to work the whole weekend. So it’s kind of a vacation to prepare for stress.
So I hope to give my burdens to the Lord the bear for me. I hope I can not stress or think about work too much. I hope that I can put in the practice some of the things I’m learning and my mom set free bible study. I’m hoping that I can just enjoy some days with my family. It is such a blessing to know that God does have our back not only when things get rough, but even before they do to help prepare us for the journey ahead.
Did y’all ever read this book? It’s one of my FAVORITE and when #BabyLogan joined a book club and was sent this book, i was ecstatic! We love it and he can basically quote the whole thing.
But this Wednesday was my own #THNGVBDay . Work was beyond awful. I cried like…….3 times. I got in a fight with a resident. I couldn’t do my job because of software and technical glitches . I had zero support (okay not zero but minimal and not enough) from my company.
And then Man got in a car wreck. A bad one. He’s ok and the car will either be fixed or we will get insurance money and figure out a replacement, either way it will be fine. But he did have to go to the ER which is scary and annoying. And he is set to have surgery Monday so we had the stress of whether this would effect that.
Some days are just like that.
God is still good.
All the time.
And All the time
God is still Good.
This week has definitly knocked me down. My job has never been harder. Working until 6 or later every night. Exhausted by the time I’m done. Heck, I’ve eaten out 3 nights this week becsuse I’m too tired to make food!
But, God is good and small victories are won each day . A process learned, a questioned answer, a task completed. My main goal this week and beyond is to be the positive light of the Lord during my works dark transition. Praise Jesus for the comfort he gives all, even those of us with silly work problems 🙂
If you only look at us , you might well miss the brightness. We carry this precious Message around in the unadorned clay pots of our ordinary lives. That’s to prevent anyone from confusing God’s incomparable power with us. As it is, there’s not much chance of that. You know for yourselves that we’re not much to look at. We’ve been surrounded and battered by troubles, but we’re not demoralized; we’re not sure what to do, but we know that God knows what to do; we’ve been spiritually terrorized, but God hasn’t left our side; we’ve been thrown down, but we haven’t broken. What they did to Jesus, they do to us—trial and torture, mockery and murder; what Jesus did among them, he does in us—he lives! Our lives are at constant risk for Jesus’ sake, which makes Jesus’ life all the more evident in us. While we’re going through the worst, you’re getting in on the best!
2 Corinthians 4:7-9 MSG
It’s just Monday, but burdens of life may already have you exhausted.
I know that i had such a lovely weekend with my famiky that i am sad a new work week has begun. But there is a time and a place for everything & i need to remember that and start my week with Joy.
Some of us may have bigger things going on that make this workweek dreadful. Maybe your job is awful, maybe you spent all weekend taking care of a loved one & you got no rest. Maybe sickness is taking a toll on you, or your weekend with your family was just cruddy. Whatever it is, God hears you and he meets you there.
Remember to take time with God and he will give you the rest you need and the ability to carry your burdens through the week. Live in his shelter and find rest in him.
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High Will remain secure and rest in the shadow of the Almighty [whose power no enemy can withstand].
PSALM 91:1 AMP
So I stated in a earlier blog post that I don’t like people. However that makes me sound….mean….grumpy….unhappy? And that’s not the case so I felt I should clarify some things.
#1 I LOVE those people that are in my daily life. Man, B, Baby W, mom, dad, sisters, family, friends, heck even co-workers at times.
#2 I am all about helping others and donating my time and skills to those in need. I am currently working on being less selfish then what I currently am
#3 I believe in being kind and considerate to everyone no matter what and truly try to do that everyday of my life.
All that being said. I don’t really like people. Or I don’t’ really like meeting new people? Don’t’ really like crowds? I don’t know.
I work in what might be referred to as a customer service job. and I’m good at it….. like damn good at it. Like got 100% on all aspects of my last two mystery shopper reports good at it. And I LOVE it. I mean I LOVE what I do. But I think that it’s this job partly that causes me to not like people. Because I’m around people…..all day every day. And on top of that
I have to be nice to them. No.Matter.What.
Now 93.7% of the time that’s ok. They are easy to be nice to. And I generally do care about what they are needing from me and want to help them.
But some days. Wow. People are rude. They are mean. They are demanding. They think they are entitled to….what I don’t know. They think that because I’m not the boss of the place I can’t help them (news flash- 7 times out of 10 I have the answer) or that because I’m in the customer service field I’m so how inferior to them? (listen up Mr. bigshot banker/lawyer/doctor/investor dealing with people on a daily basis is about a 100 times harder then memorizing whatever crap you memorized to get your job…..and I didn’t go $90,000 in debt to do it) OR that I’m lazy- that all I do is sit behind a desk all day and look pretty. Mr-I can run faster, jump higher and generally kick more butt in 4 inch heels then you can on you best day. Sit your butt down and let me do my job.
But alas I digress those people aren’t the norm and its the others that make my job worthwhile. The customer who REALLY needs my service due to a horriable relationship they are in and I’m the only one with the tools to help them move on. The customer who bonds with me over the fact that I’m naming my baby after a superhero and that my parents named their dog after a Harry Potter charcter. The customer who used to stay as far away from our office as she could until she realized that I drink beer, the boss drinks beer, and wow….we really are cool chicks. And the customer who is just always happy to talk to me or see me no matter what.
They are why I do what I do and why I love it.
But I still don’t like people and I think its the minority group that just wear me out some days the last thing I want to do is go out and meet more people who perhaps could be any of those horriable things. Or be in a crowd of people where I know 1 person and they know everyone else and I just stand their looking stupid. NOW crowds of people at events like….the zoo, ball games, shopping malls, or festivals don’t bother me because I’m not there for the people most of the time and generally the people I am with don’t know everyone so it’s ok. It’s like the parties/events/get together of 20+ people that I hate and I just don’t want to be forced to make small talk with random strangers….I make small talk all damn day!
So that’s that. It’s not that I am mean. Unhappy. Uncaring. Or cynical even. I just prefer the people I already know and maybe a few others thrown in at a time. And honestly….that changes sometimes too. Because I do feel a great sense of empathy and compassion for people….just in small doses. I do know that it is my duty as a Christian women to share the word of Jesus with others. That’s why I teach Sunday School, VBS, attend Bible Studies, and try to make it so when I’m working people can send Jesus in me on a daily basis.
So if you invite me to some big backyard bbq, birthday party, or some other event and I don’t attend. Please don’t get offended.
It’s not you.
It’s not me.
It’s everyone else.
For Those of you who don’t have the pleasure of knowing what this place is- let me inform you. It is the worlds best little greek restaurant over off of Holmes and….99th? They make the BEST Gyro in town second only to a place called Max’s that is oddly enough 1 street west. But any who this place is amazing!
And I LOVE places that aren’t open on Sunday’s : Hobby Lobby, Chic-Fil-A and up until a month or so ago the company I worked for -sorry no hyper link here I’m smarter then I look for purpose of this venture we will just call my company…..Clown Company.
I started working for clown company about 6 and 1/2 years ago. I love the business that I’m in and I LOVE the company that I work for. They have treated me well, they have treated me fair, paid be great, kept me employed through a recession, have great benefits, have helped me grow and learn and become the super star that I am, and more.
I’ve stood up for them, I’ve defended them, I’ve worked my ass off for them, I’ve made them LOTS of money.
And now I’m irritated with them.
Back in November they decided to restructure the company. Ok whatever fine, people got fired, people got demoted, people quit due to it, people took over blah blah blah. All companies do it; its a fact of life. We now have these folks from our Southwest division in charge of us up here in Kansas. Ok- once again whatever fine I can deal with ANOTHER new big boss ( I had 4-6 new bosses in 2013 and 4 big bosses I mean obviously they needed to restructure.) and at first (and still mostly) the Texas ladies have been great, they don’t’ micromanage like a old big boss did, they thought I was WONDERFUL and asked if I would ever move to Texas to become a Boss ( not happening make me Boss here) , let us be closed more on the holidays due to meeting/exceeding goals, generally being pretty dang cool.
And then they brought up Sundays. Apparently Head Clown wasn’t’ aware that business in the Kansas City/Mid-west market weren’t’ open on Sundays ( how Head Clown didn’t know this I don’t know- perhaps his job should be restructured if you aren’t even paying attention) and Big Texas Lady thinks its crazy that we aren’t open and they want us to be open. They are telling me after 6+ years of working for them that I need to give up MY ONE DAY A WEEK with my family to work 4 hours- because “The Customer Needs you!”
The Customer can hold their freaking horses for 24 hours.
I’m already open on Saturdays! I’ve worked nearly EVERY Saturday for the last 3 years! And now Sunday’s! What?!?!?!
And then to top it all off- I can’t BELIEVE the way they are going about telling us why we need to be open on Sundays. The customer needs me?!?!? Bullcrap- you want a chance to just make another $5 or so. Just tell me the truth don’t sugar coat it to try and make me WANT to work, because it won’t work. And Oh I guess what your employees want doesn’t matter AT ALL let’s forget about keeping them happy, cause they aren’t the ones you know ACTUALLY working here (eyeroll). And with all this NEW and IMPROVED and WE ARE DIFFERENT- Why can’t the thing that makes us different be the closed on Sundays? I mean it works for the above?!?!?!
So yeah there’s that. I was mad, I was hurt, I was upset, I didn’t know what to do or how to feel. Now to be fair to Clown Company they have implemented some ways to prevent us from having to having to be open on Sundays. And so I’m trying to look at the positives and just keep doing my job the way I always have. I’m working toward a promotion so that I don’t have to be in a position that works on Sundays. I’m trying to meet my goals so that I don’t have to be open. I’m doing my part. And quite frankly right now with some other stuff I have going on- I don’t have the means or ability to look for another job. But I don’t want to be someone who just goes along and does something because they have to but complains about it any chance they get ( present entry aside) .
So I’m doing what I need to do, because I do LOVE my Job, and I do LOVE the business that I’m in and for the most part I love working for Clown Company. I know that God has his hand even in this, and that somewhere along the line I will see his reasoning for putting me here and having everything that’s happening have happened. I will see his glorious plan and it will be better then anything I could of every imagined for myself.
But I’m still irritated.
for it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure. Do all things without grumbling or disputing-Philippians 2:13&14