Enjoy this reminder to be kind and love others.
Something about Fridays Jesus Calling Devotional really got to me. Maybe it was the fact she used the word scurry so well. 🙂
I think she has just painted a perfect picture of American society. We think we are so “busy” but what are we busy doing? I have a friend who always says how crazy life has been and that’s she’s been so “busy lately” & I just smile. Her busyness is her own making, she could easily stop doing all the things keeping her so busy, but instead she wants to stay busy and complain.
I am making a concentrated effort to not be busy just to be busy. B is only signed up for 1 fall activity & 1 short sports camp. #BabyLogan is signed up for 4 weeks of swimming lessons. I am in 1 bible study and Man has one personal activity. Man & I still workout but we have changed our schedules to better fit our lives.
I don’t want to spend my weekends rushing around taking B to “tournaments ” for a sport he doesn’t even know if he likes. I don’t want to stress over whether #BabyLogan is getting enough “enrichment”…..he’s not even 2! I don’t want to be so engrossed on working out that I don’t have the time to play w/my kids which is 1/2 the reason I started working out! Even being to involved with ministry can become a bad thing if it becomes just another thing to do! I recently did Priscilla Shirers bible study Breath:making room for the sabbath and it totally helped me change the way I lead my life.
Remember you don’t have to be busy jusy because every else’s life is “so crazy” right now. You have no one but #God standards to live up to. So sit back enjoy ur time with the Lord and let him control your day. It’s much more calm that way.
Our laid back morning devotion time
As I sit here @ 5:30 am on Christmas morning, feeding Baby W. I’m struck by the twinkleing lights on our tree and the shiny presents underneath. I’m laughing at B last night RUNNING up the stairs in his christmas footed PJ’s after seeing Santa had entered the united states on the NORAD santa track saying “Oh man I have to hurry santa is going to be here so soon. Hurry!” He was so excited he didn’t even want to hug & kiss his dad goodnight!
I’m sitting here checking the weather, thinking about what I need to get done this morning, if I’m gonna run, If I want hot or cold coffee and wondering just what wonderful things Man has gotten me-He already gave me a beautiful watch box early ( mostly because he didn’t want to wrap it) so I know once again I’m getting spoiled.
But As I’m sitting here starring at my sweet sleeping boy. I’m reminding myself to take a min to think- I mean REALLY think about the true meaning of this holiday. I’ve gotten annoyed this year more then ever with the commercialism, the materialism, and the blatant disregard by non believers for our 2nd most important holiday (an atheist on one of my baby boards asked how to explain christmas to her kids without talking about Jesus….um don’t).
I want to make sure I take time to Pray today, to thank god for of course my gifts, my home, the food, my family, the blessing of my and Baby W’s health. But again REALLY thank him for Jesus. The message gets lost so much- even with all the “Keep Christ in CHRISTMAS ” signs and messages out there it really gets lost in the shuffle.
I just want to take time to ponder the fact that Jesus- my lord and savior, the man who died so I can live – once looked just like my own sweet sleeping boy. He once was nursed by Mary, had whatever form of diaper they had changed, spit up on occasion, I mean the great I AM was once a helpless baby boy. How crazy is that?
I want to ponder the fact that had Jesus not been sent down in the form of a baby he would never have grown up into the man that he was, he never would of died for MY sins and rose again 3 days later, he never would of been able to save any of us!
I think about Mary and if it was hard on her knowing that while Jesus would love her- this boy of hers was destine for things far greater then being her son.
I think about Joseph and all the crazy feelings he must have had inside him.
But mostly I just want to take a minute to thank god for this miracle he sent us, that allows all of us to get swept away up in things of this season that don’t even matter.
So as you all open your gifts, eat your food, and enjoy the time with your Family and friends- remember the one who makes it all possible.
Merry Christmas To You All, Peace and Love to all mankind, Rejoice because our savior is born!
So in the last several years I’ve really tried to focus less on the media and worldy view of christmas and more on the true meaning.
However I still give gifts to those I love on christmas because I feel it’s a time to show those we love how much we love them, just as God showed us how much he loved us by sending his only son to die for us.
I do however try to make sure i’m not going overboard on the spending, and making myself go into debt because thats not what this holiday is about. Of course now having two kiddos, I’m aware that it is easy to get caught up in the worldy view. I am hoping with in the next year I hope to steal an idea from my favorite christian blogger miss Jen Hatmaker where you stick with a few gifts that fall into the following: Something you want, Something you need, Something to Wear, Something to Read, Something to eat, Something to give. (I think B needs to be a little older for it to really stick with him) I added the something to eat part- food gift cards are great stocking stuffers.
I like this idea because their are still presents to be given. Children can still ask for something they want, Parents can use Christmas as an excuse to make a much needed sweatshirt, or backpack a gift and there is a chance to show your kids the true meaning of the holiday by giving them something they have to give to someone else (For Ex: $50 that they must donate to their favorite charity in the next year).
BUT this post isn’t about making sure we celebrate christmas for the right reasons-I’m here to vent. To all the other ladies reading this who have wonderful Men in their lives who are great at gift giving……
How the heck to you make sure they get a great gift!
Man ALWAYS has something up his sleeve. I mean you should SEE the shiny rose gold fossil watch i’m eating that was my “Push-No Push” present Ryan surprised me with. And Last year my few presents were ALL items i had casually mentioned I needed or wanted that he remembered ( most specifically a book by my favorite author ). Valentines day….Diamond Necklace ( I got him nothing fail on my part) Mothers day….DON’T even get my started on the wonderful stuff he planned and got me. Birthday…..he proposed…… I mean for real!!?!?!? could I get a better gift giver?
Now I get him stuff and he created a wish list on Amazon Prime of stuff he wants, and I will get him stuff from there, but….it sucks not being creative enough to find something to just WOW him. I’ve been thinking for weeks now on a surprise gift or just something he won’t see coming and i can’t think of a damn thing. And I know thats not what gift giving is about…but i just wish for once I could surprise him the way he always surprises me.
Thats all, I just wanted to whine….but don’t even get me started on the amazingly sweet things he rights on the cards!
The 4th of July Holiday recently passed and I have to say that while it’s no where near my favorite (Thanksgiving, Christmas, Memorial Day-in that order).
However I have to say that this 4th of July was…amazing!
It was a Friday as you all know. So mine and Man’s work were both closed ( I had to work on Saturday or I should say I offered to cover for someone on Saturday but Let’s not go there now) and had a whole day together and to do whatever we wanted.
Orignally we were going to spend the 3 day weekend at the lake but since work came up and I offered to substitute teach at Sunday school we knicked that plan quick.
We tried to see what my folks were doing but they needed to “be by their lone” ( as said by the great and wonderful Remy Hatmaker) after weeks and weeks of family stuff, engagments announcements, gender reveals, and wedding planning so hanging out with their oldest daughter and her man weren’t what they wanted to be doing.
We really had a day just to do whatever….and let me tell you we did it well!
Thrusday was Man’s sisters annual 4th of July BBQ bash…..and that was ok. I don’t like people (I’m not a hateful person, I am actually a friendly, happy person most of the time but I will explain my dislike of people another day) or crowded places especially since Baby W means I can’t have a beer to relax myself and not feel stupid. But it was a nice little evening, with nice fireworks, nice food and nice people.
But what I really enjoyed was Friday itself. We got up….earlyish got coffee, McDonalds breakfast, and took the dogs out to the Heritage Dog Park where they ran and ran and ran and we walked in the sun, B yelled at the dogs to come back, Man and I held hands it was just….wonderful. Plus I knew that the doggies would be plum tuckered so I didn’t feel bad about leaving them “by their lone” :+) the rest of the day.
We then took Man’s Grandma and Grandpa and Aunt to lunch at Winsteads (Pregnant lady Like!) and then went back to their retirement home to play cards. It was so much fun- my family doesn’t play cards (hey family why don’t we play cards!) and I LOVE to so this was like the best day ever for me. We played…hearts? or something and I won at 31. It was a nice relaxing little time with some awesome people.
After that we were going to register for Baby W but B was sleepy so we went home a just chilled, I walked dogs, Man slept, and then I read B about 7 books.
We then decided to head back over to his sisters house for a much calmer 4th of July evening with just us, them, and their niece, newphew and mom. Of course we had to stop and spend as much in fireworks as it cost to fill up my gas tank.
Their we played more cards (yay!) and then blew stuff up. We snacked on leftovers and cake, and just generally enjoyed each other company.
I tried to take some firework photos my camera even has a firework photo setting but…they didn’t all turn out very well.
All in All an amazing lazy day spent with the people that mean the most to me just enjoying all that god has given me. Man, B, Baby W, family, friends, time off work, a job in the first place, and the freedom to live in a country while no where near perfect, but that allows me to have a blog like this and say whatever the heck I want.
So I have to say I am 1 lucky lady.
I truly honestly feel that I found the last decent man on earth.
Man and I started out as strangers who worked together, we became friends, when I was going thru a very rough patch in my life we bonded over superhero movies, and he helped me navigate through all the mess and stress and became my best friend. And then shortly after that our friendship became love.
And I haven’t looked back since.
I mean look at that face! How can I not be head over heels in love with him!
For the 1st time in my life I truly feel I have a partner in life. Someone who sees me as an equal, someone who loves me even with all of my craziness, someone who is committed to truly doing all the dirty work it takes to be in a realationship these days and someone who treats me like a freaking princess.
Like just now as I’m writing this I literally just got a text from man saying he wasnt’ going to his side job tonight because he wants to hang out with me. (heart melting)
The other day he stopped me while I was walking dogs and he was on his way to work to tell me that he unloaded the dishwasher and picked up the living room. Just because. And EVERYDAY he makes the bed ( as long as my lazy butt isn’t still in it) :+) I have literally never known a man to be so thoughtful, helpful, and kind.
Cheesin it up at the lake!
We literally have the best and healthiest relationship I have ever been in. We talk about our problems, we support and motivate each other, he makes me feel beautiful, and important, I make ( well I hope I make ) him feel that all the hard work he is doing is so valued and appreciated as I know that he is making a better life for us, B, and Baby W. He knows how important having god in our relationship is to me, and he is working on finding his way back to him. For Pete’s sake this bearded, tattooed, bear of a man helps teach 5th grade Sunday School without even being asked ( and 1/2 the time I think the kids like him better! ) Words can not even begin to explain how much my heart is filled with love and joy for him. Plus…we have so much darn fun together!
Marvel Movie Night! ‘Call your mom can you bunk over?’ -‘I was having 12% of a moment’
and I mean we were pretty much made for each-look how cute we are together even back in the day
A lovely Christmas gift from his sister……we both still give eachother these looks
He just makes me smile. I feel so loved. And no I’m not saying our relationship is perfect- He likes to yell when he gets upset, I like to make snide comments under my breath, we both let outside influences sometimes creep into our relationship, and I’m sure we will have many more things that will come up, but at least with this man I know that he won’t let me just throw in the towel.
Man proposed a couple weeks ago. That’s right on my birthday he told me he wanted to give me my gift and he got down on one knee in front of my whole family, presented me with this beautiful ring
and asked me to join him and B in their lives and to Marry Him…..someday. It was the nicest sweetest most romantic thing it took me about 3 minutes after it happened to fully grasp what had happened and then the tears just came. On the way home that weekend- he wanted me to know that he knew I wasn’t ready to get married right away, but that he wanted me to know that he loves me and is committed to Baby W and our life and he wanted me and everyone to know that he was. Plus he wanted to “shut up all the people giving us crap”. He also said that when I finally actually agree to do it, and set a date I will get a bigger rock ( but please don’t do that now cause I need to save) :+)
That brought on more tears. I expressed to him how I want to marry him, but I am soooooo fearful of repeating my past mistakes. I worry I shall get a “grass is greener” complex like I do sometimes when things are good- I can be self destructive……like very self destructive. I worry about hurting him- because while my Ex hurt me very very much, and treated me poorly. I made my own mistakes, and Man is just to damn perfect to do that to. He is literally the LAST person on this earth I want to hurt- and I so worry about the bad girl side of me- the one I have spent years overcoming-creeping back in.
But as a dear friend and church leader reminded me when I told her- “does worrying add one minute to your life” I can not worry and waste the time and life god has blessed me with. I must pray and trust in god that this time around things will be different, Man is different, I am different, and this time around true love will conquer all.
But I’m still not setting date.
I do apologize if this was to mushy for some of you. I normally like to keep things like this private- but I do feel so lucky, and so blessed, and after he unloaded the dishwasher at 6:15 am for me….well I just wanted to brag.
And man if you are reading this-For infinity…….& beyond.
Well I guess it’s come to that point in time where I get to shout it to the world. After years of hoping, wishing and prayer in gods own little weird way he has decided to bless me with a baby.
Sometime Late October/Early November 2014 Baby W will arrive into this world.
13.5 weeks-Baby Bump or just chubby?
I hate these mirror selfies by the way, but really they are the easiest way to get these pictures take.
But yes Man and I are expecting a baby and I could not be more THRILLED! Or more terrified. Its been a rough 7 weeks or so since I found out. I’ve been terrified of miscarrying and haven’t wanted to tell anyone…..while wanting to tell everyone. I really tried to wait until 12 or 14 weeks but I slipped at 8 or 9 weeks and then again at 11 weeks.
Tuesday will mark 14 weeks and the start of the 2nd trimester. I’m starting to feel more confident and less scared, but not a ton.
I think I’ve had a pretty OK pregnancy so far. I had some heartburn ( which is weird as I’ve never had heartburn EVER). I couldn’t eat red meat for 6 weeks. I ate a ton of Chicken, Fresh fruits and veggies, and Ice Cream :+/ The WORST has been the fatigue. I’ve been EXHAUSTED all the time, I’m talking go to bed at 9:00 and don’t get up until 7:15 EXHAUSTED.
That’s been the hardest, as I’m not a tired person, I can function on 5-6 hours of sleep a night, but not now.
I’ve also had trouble with the weight gain. I KNOW I KNOW its a baby I’m supposed to gain weight! But as someone who has struggled with her weight most of her life gaining is kind of hard for me. Luckily Man is very sweet and that helps.
I haven’t been working out like I would like, but I’m trying to get back into a groove. So far this week I’ve walked 4 days almost 2 miles a day. I REALLY want to get into some running maybe 2 or 3 days a week and some small weights (arms, thighs, abs) so prayer for that to start back up would be great!
It’s going to be a stressful next few months, but I’m looking forward to them. I really want to make sure that I ENJOY this pregnancy. I’m enjoying the current fact that I should get to be on maternity leave over the holidays ( yes!) so that makes me happy. And I know all the other stuff will fall into place according to gods plan as long as I stay steadfast in prayer.
Right now, I’ll just focus on enjoying the little miracle growing inside of me.